What I would tell my 5 year old self:
Listen to your mother. Pay attention in Spanish class. Do what you were born to do. You’re creative, vivacious, a hands on learner, and highly relational.
Go on and be that.
What I’d tell my 10 year old self:
What the rest of the class thinks of you really doesn’t matter. Sunday school can be boring, but the songs, stories, and foundational truths will still be in your heart more than 20 years later.
What I’d tell my 15 year old self:
He’s not worth it and you’ll wish you hadn’t. Pursue what you’re passionate about, not what you can get a scholarship for. Don’t leave church, no matter what. You’ll thank God every day for the decades of friendship under your belt. These videos in your best bud’s basement will someday be used as wedding black mail. Stop eating that crap & for the love of Pete, wear SUNSCREEN!
What I’d tell my 20 year old self:
This is only temporary. There is life on the other side and you will overcome this season. There is forgiveness, grace and mercy available to you. Stop hiding – you are not Superwoman and it’s okay to ask for help. Slow down sista. You are not what you weigh… You are loved and you are not alone.
What I’d tell my 25 year old self:
Listen to all your mothers. He’s not worth it and you’ll wish you hadn’t (by the way, you’re going around the same mountain). You should have worn sunscreen. Be faithful with what’s in your hand, so you can see what’s in your heart fulfilled. Be patient, get out of debt, don’t give your heart, your time, your energy away so cheaply. Love God. Love people. Get rid of your Plan B – whatever you do, do it wholeheartedly.
What I’d tell my 30 year old self:
On your best day, you couldn’t have dreamed up the husband you have. He was worth all the tears and all the waiting. A love for the marginalized, the poor, and the broken is about to press you into a new season, and increase your desire for reciprocity and your hunger for deep, meaningful relationship. The table is sacred. Sit there often with people you love, with those who are hurting, with those others deem unworthy. The mission of God is wherever you are, so look up and pay attention. You are about to have a faith shift. Remember that you can’t lose Jesus. God is so vast; His love is incomprehensible; His Kingdom more massive than you can imagine. Your sweet baby boy will give you and your hubby new eyes for what is important.
What I hope for my 35 year old self:
A new dream. A resurrected hope. A surprising adventure. Change in individuals and institutions that is scalable across different contexts. Sweeter intimacy. Deeper relationship. Reciprocal over transactional. Tenderness. More time at the table. More babies. Intellectual stimulation. Music. A beautiful season of marriage, family and friendship. Go see the world.